Hello everyone! I wanted to be very open and honest about me. It will be 20 years ago this December, that I had brain surgery that would change my life forever. I had a stroke during the surgery that left me partially paralyzed on my left side.I had to fight to graduate from high school after graduation. It was a miserable time for me. But i knew one thing God was there for me.
I was so morbidly obese from my inability to move like I once could aand I would eat late at night. In 2000, I underwent gastric bypass surgery. it was amazing ! In 2000 I dropped down to my lowest weight in 20 year 160lbs. I looked good and felt great! I like who I was and what I looked like so thin! I was walking 6 miles a day doing 2,000 crunchies a day! I was enjoying life. Then I was in a bad car accident in 2002 that set me back because of my lungs. In 2003, I gave birth to my second child, what a blessing.
When she was 8 weeks old i fell up an escalator with her and as she landed upside down in her carrier going up the escalator I had my knee go behind my back being dragged up the escalator 3/4 the way till some1 finally stopped it. That pretty much traumatized my knee into total dislocation but the military denied anything wrong after a 4th meniscus surgery on my knee. I had to see a German surgeon 4 yrs after the incident to get my knee put back into correct spot only to be told I still need a knee replacement at 34 then. That rehabilitation I was off my feet for 6 months, wheelchair bounded because I cant use crutches nor a walker.It was my good knee that was damaged. Since the last surgery in 2007 I have not regained any real ability to walk long distances, or stand for long period of time. Have a lot of pain in my knee constantly.
My hubby yes married me with a disability and it was for better or worse. But today I am pretty much in need of my wheelchair to go places that require me to walk a lot. I feel robbed and some days I just wish I were normal and could enjoy things with my kids like rollerskating, bicycling and running. I cant do any of them. I love to watch them and god has blessed me. Moral of the story don't ever judge a person by what they look like bc you cant see their pain nor disabilities always. it stings us. In all fairness I sometimes feel as though hubby has been robbed of things bc of my disability. Yes even though I can’t change my disability for what it is, It is not like a person with an addiction can change, but it hurts all the same because I am human. I have feelings and emotions and scars to prove them.
Although I have let go and let god many years ago and thankful to him for all hes done for me,bc with out him I would not be here today, without him Id never finished college. I'm not done yet. He has a plan for my life. Hes working with me always.
Please be kinder and gentler to those in your life and help serve others who are less fortunate in this world. I love serving others and helping others who are less fortunate but I want them to be encouraged and empowered not let down and feeling hopeless or worthless. There's so much more to life than material goods and our wants. Live, Love a lot,Laugh more and learn!
Although I have let go and let god many years ago and thankful to him for all hes done for me,bc with out him I would not be here today, without him Id never finished college. I'm not done yet. He has a plan for my life. Hes working with me always.
Please be kinder and gentler to those in your life and help serve others who are less fortunate in this world. I love serving others and helping others who are less fortunate but I want them to be encouraged and empowered not let down and feeling hopeless or worthless. There's so much more to life than material goods and our wants. Live, Love a lot,Laugh more and learn!
